From a dark vacuum of incest, violence and abuse, where no amount of love, sex, food, and success could fill my void of self hatred, I “inflicted” everything and every relationship I had with my own self hate, and thus was “right”.
I was not loveable, beautiful, or talented.
I crated a self-fulfilling prophecy.
And then one day my son (oldest) came to me and proclaimed his love for me.
I was blown away.
He said “I love you mom.
You did the best you knew how and NOW it is time to learn something more.
Trust
me.”
And I went to my first Guest Presentation.
Then to Quest and it was during my last process just minutes before my Quest Graduation, that process tore a hole in the fabric of my self-hatred and a beautiful beam of light shot through my heart.
I saw myself as love, peace, joy and light.
So from the chaos emerged a beautiful seed bearing light, and as my loving trainers sustained, supported, and loved me, I have now created a world of brilliant colors, frequencies with sound and light in which there is no end.
A spiral dance of beauty that is now my soul.
~Krystine, Lift-Off 125~
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